Comments for Secret #2023

I almost cheated on my spouse with a man from school. The only reason we didnt was due to interruptions. I guess its for the best it never happened, but it almost went that far. and now its been weeks of silence bc we havent seen eachother but when we do in 3 weeks im not sure what will happen. Will we both ignore eachother and pretend this was all nothing? Most likely? Why cant we let this go. Will we move on from this and be strangers? Its best that way but I hate seeing him indifferent and happy. I selfishly want him tethered to me even though we havent been overt about any of this. its all plausible deniability, nonverbal flirtations, and then the most recent text where we indirectly both tried to save face but infer we should say bye the right way. Neither of us would assume the role of crossing the line first. What a bland goodbye. Silence. I have no clue, but yes I know im shitty. My husband is the kindest man ive ever met. I want to be loyal.